I've always promised myself that I'd keep this blog light and positive. So I hope this post stays within that framework.
Within my despair, there is, of course, hope. Hope that things will brighten in the future. So where does my hope lie? In the things I know I need to be happy. So I'm starting a list. Of course, such lists change over time and with thought. I'm a left brainer so I love the list. Some lists are meant to be checked off when completed. This list of things I need will be tweaked and subtracted and added to as I continue to think about it.
That's another thing I know about myself. I need to talk and write in order to process. I guess that's one of the reasons I like to blog.
So here's the beginning. I apologize if some of this seems materialistic, vain or totally irrelevant to you. After all, it is my list. Yours will be totally different.
Things I Need
- Time to devote to the two bullets above
- Time spent outside, in nature, in the sun
- A dedicated place to sew
- Meaningful work
- Comfortable clothes
- A glass of wine on the weekends (red, preferably while cooking)
- Time to cook and bake
- A clean, uncluttered home
- time to myself
- time with my children
- time with my husband (without my children)
- time to spend with all of my family (nuclear and extended)
- time with my girlfriends
- enough money (but not too much)
- something new to learn
- time spent with the seasons (eating, cooking, gardening, learning)
I know that my life needs to change in some way at some time. I don't want to live it the way it is right now. Hopefully things are temporary. I made this list to really think about how I should be spending each day of my life. What do I need in each of these days. How can I find those things? What about my current schedule is lacking?
You may see some hints at how I'm thinking of changing over the next few days and weeks. I need to trust that God has a plan for my life. That plan tends to be not what others think is best for me and mine. So that gets tough. But....I am always happiest when I follow that plan. His plan. Not mine.